Still and Rejoice..

Today was a normal day. As usual, I woke up n ate some nice dim sum bought by mum. Reached church n we started our routine prayer time wif Jessie Jie. However, prayer today seemed different. We reali can feel da presence of God in our room, so close dat we felt dat He was juz beside us. Jessie Jie lead a song. English translation shd be Holy Spirit dat gives freedom. As we sang, my heart started to feel da love of God in my heart......

I admit dat in my ministry, I'll always show my strong side. As a leader, we shd onli speak of words dat r encouraging  n positive. When I'm wif my members, I'll onli speak of encouraging words, hope dat I can build up their life n wont let God n church leaders down. I always believe dat we as children of God shd serve Him n love Him whole-heartedly no matter in wat circumstances.

However, I noe, deep inside my heart, I stil hav some kind of emptiness. Sometimes when I've been busy serving n workin whole day, I'll feel kinda lost n blank after dat. I'll feel tired. I'll feel lik, God, where're U? Do I love U whole heartedly so I serve U? Or I serve because it's my ministry? I'm lost, n sometimes to escape dis kind of thinkin, I'll chose not to tink bout it, hoping dat wat I do is correct, n I serve because I love.

This situation continued for days. Dis few days, I had a deep talk wif few of our church leaders. Their words strongly encouraged me. I understand dat da emptiness in my heart, is because my relationship with God is not deep enough. I always try to use my ways n my thinking to solve problem, yet I forgotten I hav a great big Father God dat is always standing dere n waiting me to turn bak towards Him. I'll always try to cover up myself, especially my weak side, to show da whole world dat I'm really okay. But deep inside me, dere's a voice telling, Lord, I need U.. Pls refresh my heart. Let me feel da love I first had when I first met U. Lord, pls feel my heart with da fire n passion n love for U when i first get my salvation. N dat I willing to sacrifice all my time n my strength juz to spread ur gospel in all nations n all places juz to see salvations in ppl. 

Lord, I noe I'm weak, but in U I can fullfil alot of amazing n wonderful things. Holy spirit, I wan U to be in my life everyday, n lead me in everything I do, as I know, Lord, U're my shepherd n I'm Ur sheep, n U'll show me da pathway towards light. Lord, let me be da lighthouse, although I mayb lonely standing by da sea, yet da light I shine can brighten up lifes in darkness. N I noe although I may seemed lonely, but God, U're my refuge n shelter, n U'll be by myside forever. Lord, strengthen me, help me, be with me.

God, I love U. Make this love towards U getting more n deep everyday, n I pray dat in my life, dere will be more of U n less of me everyday. In all circumstances, I juz want to, be STILL, n REJOICE in the Lord..

年青岁月。。

近来，觉得自己有些‘老’了。。

似乎越来越难以明白现代年轻人的想法。。 =.=

现今年轻人的思想，行为，似乎和当初的我差得天渊之别。。

他们情绪的波动，敢作敢恨的行为，让我甘拜下风。。

尤其是男女关系，换伴侣好像换衣服那么快，实在让我摸不着，也想不透，他们恋爱到底是为了什么呢？寂寞？追求一时的娱乐？因为他有所以我也要有？他告白，就接受咯，别hurt人吗。。

这似乎和当初神造男女的目的好像有出入了。。

经上记着说，

“神就赐福给他们、又对他们说、要生养众多、遍满地面、治理这地．也要管理海里的鱼、空中的鸟．和地上各样行动的活物。”

“因此、人要离开父母、与妻子连合、二人成为一体。”

年轻时，难免好玩好动，但须紧记神的话语，恋爱，乃是为了结婚。。

年轻时的疯狂岁月，每个人都曾经对爱充满憧憬。。

可是，在我心里，我深信，万事都互相效力，叫爱神的人的益处。。

当我们先求神的国和神的义时，我们所需要的，神必加给我们。。

最近，觉得自己的“异性缘”还蛮好的。。

为什么用开关引号呢，皆因所有异性都是小弟弟型的。。=.=

这些弟弟们好可爱，都小我好几年呢。。

可是还蛮听话的。。

时常和我分享他们生活上所面对的问题，感情问题，对神的话语的疑问。。

看见他们渐渐在主里成长，心里确实还蛮开心的。。

愿神继续的保守他们的心思意念，让他们知道，生命里最美丽，最值得的事是为主而活。。

昨天和一位好久都没说话的朋友谈天了。。

虽然只是短短几句，可是非常的开心。。

大家互相的关心问候，感觉非常温馨。。

还记得前一阵子都不太想和他联络，因为几乎每次说话都弄得像吵架般，不开心收场。。

当然，他也应该不够敏锐，正确点应该是我不开心收场。。

昨天忽然领悟到，当我们肯放下过去，以平常心看待一切，相处之下的感觉就不一样了。。

与其耿耿于怀，倒不如开开心心过每一天。。 =）

神的意念，高过人的意念。当我们将凡事献上给神时，祂明白什么是对我们最好的。。

所以，我们应当一无挂虑、只要凡事借着祷告、祈求、和感谢、将你们所要的告诉神。

因为，神所赐出人意外的平安、必在基督耶稣里、保守你们的心怀意念。