Destiny..

I've been fasting n prayin for da whole week..

While worrying for my exam..

I'm oso Seekin my destiny..

Now I've an important decision to make..

To go or to stay..

I admit, I feel heavy when I tot of leaving dis place, leaving my family n frens, n even leaving my ministry, church, dearest cell members, n oso him..

I noe its a reali good chance to go to a new environment, to learn new things, c da whole wide world, meet whole bunch of new frens..........

Actually.. I noe he influenced me alot.. He say.. Go, y not.. Such a gud chance...

N deep inside my heart.. I oso could use dis as a reason.. To go to another place, to escape fr something, to forget something, n to forget him.. N I could start a whole new life again..

Spoked to a sis today.. She encouraged me alot wif her testimony..

She say its God's destiny dat she could giv up such a gud chance to go overseas study..

Ppl might tink she's stupid, but she say she nvr regret dat she chosed to stay..

She say memories here she get throughout dis years is so precious dat she wont exchange it wif going overseas..

She's now happy n contented wif wat she has..

She told me.. Nvr make a decision to fly juz to escape fr some1 or something..

I guessed.. She somehow knows wat i tink.. Reali is a gud leader of mine... XD

Talked to Pastor oso.. He says.. Pray, n hand it to God..

By chance.. I found out something...

Something I tot I will noe when it happen..

Pray dat all things wil be all well ends well..

God, pls tel me wats my destiny..

Wat shd i study n shd i go?

Pls make me love u more..

Pls help me, dat in watever decisions i make, its from u lord..

I pray dat u'll giv me a clean heart..

Juz to love U n worship u..

I hope U'll tel me, giv me a sign, dat i shd go or not..

As for him, I promised myself, I'll start to forget, as I noe time passes, n some truth reveals, it onli brings pain n sadness to myself.. Even though I've failed many times, yet i noe, 1 day i'll forget him completely.. N hope dat we may stil be frens forever..

Til den.. I hand in my life to God..

Lord, U're my refuge n shelter..

U loved me more den anything else in dis world..

Lord, hold me in ur arms n I'll find peace n joy in u............

Sweet Memories...

Today is Mothers' day..
Tot of celebrating wif my dearest mummy..
Mana tau she got her own plans n went Genting wif dad d..
=.="
Anyways..
She enjoy den can d lar..
Jz wana wish her a very happy mothers day..

I love u always, MUMMY..

Hope u stay happy always.. =)

Had a reali gud chat wif Kor on last thurs..

Long time we didnt chat nicely d..

Always tok oso onli bout formal things, work..........
Finally..
After so long time..
He's bak.. =)
N we crap alot dat day..
Enjoyed.. =P
However, he's bak to his work..

N a diff him again..

Anyways..
Hope he'll be bak again soon..
Miss my Kor alot.. =)

Last sun is our church's parents appreciation dinner..
I bought 4 tickets for our whole family too..
Its a nice dinner n I enjoyed it alot..
I hope my family does too.. =)
Anyways..

Dis is da 1 of a few pics i took dat nite..

Wif my dearest pet bro..

May God bless me wif a new camera soon so i can take more nex time.. =)

Gals..

















Mannee, Sin Li, Me n Sebrina..

Kenny n Me.. XD

Holiday...

I'm currently on my 1 day 2 nite holiday.. =)
I reach here yesterday 12.30am... 1 day here.. going bak at 7am tmr as bro got seminar to attend..
Its kinda rush it seems.. but better den no holiday rite..
Its da time spending wif family matters anyways..
Slept well, brunch, currently sitting in starbucks, waiting to check in to 1st world hotel..
got almost 300 more numbers to go...
So I shall spend sometime online n blog, before studyin in hotel later...
Dis shall be da 1st sat in dis year dat I'm so free, no need to go church..
Some of our youths went for mission trip..
May God bless dem abundantly throughout da journey..

hmm..
Juz a short post..
Last holiday before my A-Levels exam..
Shall treasure it n enjoy myself to da max.. =)
Need to study hard after dis..
May God strengthen me, giv me da will n power to study smart n study hard, so dat i may get gud results to glorify His name..........

欲。。

人的情欲真的好难摸清。。

我曾经好喜欢好喜欢一件东西。。

不知为什么，第一眼看见就好喜欢。。

可是，我知道我永远都没有能力去拥有那件东西。。

看见别人拥有，对那东西悉心呵护时，心里不禁酸了起来。。

我到底怎么了。。

一件东西足以让我爱上那么长的一段日子。。

到如今，还是好喜欢好喜欢。。

那么平凡的一件东西，为什么会那么在乎呢。。

有谁可以告诉我，有何方法可以让我放下呢。。

好想把那东西，从记忆里删除了。。

这样的我，也许会过得更好。。。。。

How I Wish...

How I wish time could go bak..
How i missed high sch time..
All my classmates n buddies..
How I missed NS time, n all my frens..
Which almost lost contact..

How I wished time could reverse..
Dat I can go bak to da little world of mine..
Wif all my imaginaries n dreams..
With U n Me..

How I wished..
We could juz be da kid we used to be..
How I wished we could sit down n hav a reali nice talk..
Hu remembered when is da last time we reali talked..

How I wish...
I am stil a kid way bak den.......

Blessings....

Finally..
My birthday past d..
n I'm..... officially...... 19!!
Hmm.. Time reali flies it seems..

Anyways..
Birthday dis year is special..
Its kinda simple..
Yet, I felt being loved by many..
So here, I wanna say thx to all for all ur blessings n presents ya..
Appreciate it alot.. =)

On sat, after church, Dad bring all of us, including my grandparents fr Penang,
went to Ampang look out point, which is also known as Little Genting..
We went dere n had a reali nice dinner..
Food is nice, n da view is reali nice too.. =)
Mayb 1 day I shd bring my frens dere too..
Den.. As I blow my bday candle n cut my cake..
I make a wish...
May God bless me n my family n frens throughout da year.. =)

On Sun..
As clock strike 12..
I started recieved wishings fr many frens..
No matter through phone or facebook, thx all for stayin up so late to wish me ya..
Haha..
Den.. Went church in da mornin..
After service..
Get lots of wishings n presents fr my dearest church members again..
Once again..
Thx alot.. =)

After all the meetings..
Me, Mannee, Kor, Li, Ching went for a simple dinner..
Kor juz sat 15 mins n left for his birthday dinner..
Others sit n finished dinner happily..
Thx all for accompanying me for da dinner ya..
Thx Kor alot for paying for my dinner too.. =)
Thx to Mannee for da bottle of wishes n ur time lar..
U reali those noe wat I lik hor.. =)
N Li n Ching.. Thx for da presents n time lar.. I seriously appreciate it alot.. =)

Later nite,
I'm going dinner wif my best frens in high sch..
Missed dem alot..
Thx for purposely come bak fr Nilai to hav dinner wif me ya..
Looking forward to meet u all later.. =)

Hmm..
Dis year..
Birthday is reali special..
Thx all again..
Thx God for giving me such nice family n frens..
Dear God, pls bless me n all my family n frens, dat all we need, may U bless us..
God, pls tell me too.. Wat is ur destiny in my life..
Dat I may not waste my life on earth, bit to fullfil all Ur purpose U had in my life..........

^.^

Happy Birthday to Me!!! =)