怎么感觉你忽然变了，是因为那件事吗？
人与人之间相处，果然是个不容易学的功课。。。。

Midnite thoughts~

Its 12am sharp now, seriously not in da mood of sleeping... =.=
Anyways, wasnt in a really good situation dis few days..
Fri helped Mannee with the props til 5am, drained up all my energies, and somehow something unhappy happened in the middle due to miscommunication..
Sigh..
Juz so emo dis two days dunno how to do..
Its not really my fault actually, I really hoped that u could help n appreciate ur intention to help, juz that the situation do not permits..
I didnt noe it will end up lik dat..
I'm really sorry for da trouble caused, wat else can i do now?
Dun like the feelings being lik dat...
Will everything juz end lik dat??
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Next, joined Christmas Giza dance performance..
Started practice only yesterday, and I only have 1 week to the real day of performance..
My dance skills learned through ballet 9 years ago has rusted it seems..
Its really tiring and hard to follow, but i promised to try to have fun and do my best, All for Jesus... (especially seeing Jason n Tze En dancing wif a lollipop, its simply so cute n motivating.... :P if they can do it, y cant I rite? )

Lets talk bout something happy.. :)
Stayed at Mannee's place on fri..
As I smartly banged my car last mon, she became my driver for few days and we talked alot..
It has been ages since we hav the time to talk so much..
Love to see her smiling n telling her stories..
Kissed her durin dinner yesterday :P
She's juz so cute...
Thanks for being by my side everytime i need help sis, LOVE u lots.... :)

Life is juz like coffee, its mixture of bitter and sweet..
Juz try to remember the sweet memories, and throw away the bitter parts.....
Wat should I do? Wat can I do?
When there is no hope in life, juz COME TO JESUS, He is everything I need and everything I seek........

p/s: juz found out dat I'm juz thinkin tooooo much =.=

累

最近日子过得不错，生活起了些变化，让我每天都很期待晚上的到来。。
日子过得很忙碌，堆积如山的assignments, presentation, mid term, 几乎把我挤得喘不过气来。。

好累好累，累得让自己编制了少读经祷告的借口。。
神阿，我知道我不该这样，尤其是在上星期５在小组里听着子和哥的分享，就像是神在此都过信息告诉我，是时候认罪悔改了。。
我，不要成为那假冒伪善的法利塞人。。
我需要你，耶稣。。
再次把爱与负担放进我的心里，让我从新认识你。。

似乎习惯了与这班好弟兄姐妹太亲了，他们让我感觉非常信任，也因此常在他们面前放肆自己。。
后悔了，却无不于事。。

累了，好像大哭，大闹，大喊，发泄憋在心里的一切感受。。
好想能有个人，能够明白我，爱护我，听我述说心里一切的话语。。
身为领袖，该有身份，有顾忌，有榜样。。
但是就只有今天，我好想放肆自己，我，想被人疼爱，捧在手心呵护。。
就只有今天，我想大声哭，发泄一切心里的压力。。
就只有今天，我就想做个普通人，一个普通的女孩，一个爱闹，有小姐脾气的女孩。。
就一天，就够了。。
明天，我就没事了。。:)

然而，不管发生什么事，依然学习凡事交托，凡事谢恩。。
谢谢你所让我经历的一切，我知道，每样的事情发生都有我必须学习的功课。。
爱你，亲爱的宝贵耶稣。。。:)

Its Complicated~

My blog is kinda dead recently.. Juz feel so lazy to come and update :P
Well, life is pretty good lately, busy with uni, church as usual..
This sem is bit special, as it is a short sem, only 7 weeks, and I joined 2 events, incharging of drama and marketing.. Wrote a 'cacated' script, no time to practice and it is only 1 week left till the big day.. =.= STRESS..
Assignments are piling up, tutorial questions not done, presentations, cell group visitations, bible study........
Relax, between problem and God, I choose you, God.. =)

Well, something happened this week.. Some thing about cell member, I was kinda worried at first, prayed for her, and thank God she is now okay :)
Yesterday was a special day, Mei Lin Jie shared in cell group, and Deric Gor shared a really good and encouraging sermon.
It was Chu Ling's birthday too~ We sang birthday song for her after service. Once again, happy blessed birthday gal, and love u lots.. :P

But that is still not a main point.. One of my senior in high school visited my cell group and church. I was really surprised initially, and awkwardly talked to him and invited him to cell group.
Thank God everything end up smoothly.
After that we went for dinner, talked alot, and suddenly I realised that he is sooooo different than what I usually think who he is. He impressed me alot with his stories, and ya, he is a gentleman. =) He treat us dinner, send me bak church to pick up my sentul boys, sent them home and finally drop me home.. I was bit paise actually, ma fan-ing some1 after so long time no see.. =P
But I enjoyed the day with him, a long lost contact senior.


Life is juz toooooo complicated..
Too many decisions to make.....
Too many paths to take......
Help me GOD, guide me the path.
Anyways, God is my priority in life.
Amen.

p/s: in case someone is reading, juz scribbling around.. :) erase it after u read it n dun ask me anything, juz releasing stress XD

坏女人

最近爱上了FT ISLAND 的‘坏女人’。。
忽然间觉得，我自己就是个坏女人。。。。

很多时候，明明知道某些事不应该做，却偏偏去做。。。
有些事脑袋一直呼唤着去做，却因依着情绪没去做。。
一生人当中，自认所作的好事不少，心里犯的错误却也好多。。
外表看似没事，其实心却早已伤痕累累。。

很多事情总是没法做选择，就学会埋怨。。
在那可以做选择的小事上，往往却做错了选择。。

幸好，虽然我什么都不是，什么都做不好，什么都不会，但是感谢神，依然用那小小的我，那坏坏的我，那没用的我，成为祂美好计划里的一部分。。。

我相信，因着神，我将从破碎到自由。。
我，有一天会找着属于我的幸福，属于我的蓝天。。

安息。。

此刻的心情，好低落。。
就像外面下着的绵绵细雨。。是天空在为他哭泣吗？
这不是大家想要的结局。。
为什么？每个人心里都有千百个为什么？？
为什么是他？为什么是才华横溢，爱神的他？
不知道神，你的旨意是什么意思。。

好想好想大哭一场，眼泪却流不出。。
好想找人说说话，告诉我说，友婷，别难过，这是梦而已，但是。。。。可能吗？？

忽然间，脑海里浮起了好多好多的回忆。。
他说话的样子，笑着的样子，打鼓的样子，拍戏的样子，载我回家的样子。。。。
还记得他说的话，记得和他嬉闹的日子，记得，他说他和我用同款手机时的样子。。
好多好多的回忆。。
你还记得吗？我还欠你几趟旅程，我答应有机会一定要载你回家的。。。。
现在，我永远都没有这个机会了吧。。。。。。。。
好想为你做些什么，你能不能告诉我，我能做些什么呢。。。
此刻，我什么都不想做，只想为你祈祷，希望你安息。。

你是我最敬爱的哥哥，我会永远把你深藏在心里的角落。。
你的每一件事，我都会记得的。。
你鼓励我的每一句话，我答应你，我一定会做到。。
你坚持不放弃的精神，我会时时刻刻提醒自己，向你学习。。

相信此刻你是快乐的吧。。
远离一切的痛苦烦恼，安息在主怀里，与耶稣一同坐席了吧。。
我答应你，我不会再伤心了，你的生命，深深地鼓励了我，我以你为荣。。。

哥哥，安息吧。。。我们天堂见吧。。。

miracle..

我，相信神迹。。。
Kevin哥，我们真的很爱你。。
你要坚强啊。。。

神阿，你是赐生命气息的神。。
愿你彰显你荣耀的作为在他的身上，因他要为你完成更多伟大的梦想。。。

主啊，我恳切祷告，直到成就。。我相信，他必得痊愈。。。。。。

Amen！