Am in a very confused state now.
Its just a dream Adeline, wake up!
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Heart of Worship
I'm coming back to the heart of worship, and its all about You, all about You, Jesus. Amen.
Again, I juz wanna say grace and thank God for giving me the chance to involve in praise n worship ministry, to have the chance in serving him with the keyboard together with the team.
I used to have the thinking that my ministry is a 2nd class ministry, where my presence is not really important (where if there is me then the music becomes nicer, but without me it doesnt affect much). I could not really cope with the team, where i always think that the guys (musicians) have their special way of communication, and i could not understand n join in the conversation.
Went to FGA again few days ago for a praise n worship seminar with Redo. Missed the 1st session, but I thank God i went to the 2nd one. Was juz bak from Singapore n JB on thurs, and i went straight to the seminar. Feeling really tired, I am not really really excited at first. However, things changed when Redo started singing worship, and when he started sharing. His voice is sooooooo anointed, and i really could feel the presence of God when he sang the first line. I learned alot from his sharing, he is really humble, cute and always smiling throughout the session. He shared his life testimony, and I was amazed by his life story, and also how great is our God to use a person like him, who came from a really really broken family. He used to be a nobody, he learned music on his own, until now he can sing any songs on the spot wif his guitar, and also compose songs which are sang throughout countries. I still remember each and every word that he speaks. He is famous, yet he does not steals the glory of God. He seems to be nobody, but God makes him a somebody.
The first worship song he sang: "I'm coming back to the heart of worship, and its all about You, all about You, Jesus", and his sharing that the one that we are ministering should be God, not men. And then I realised, its all about Jesus. No matter the presence of me is important or not in the eyes of men, no matter how small the contribution i gave, its all about Jesus, and it matters to God. Suddenly, I felt so blessed, so loved by God, and so proud and happy that i am in the worship team, that i could use the keyboard to worship. Suddenly, i feel so grateful that i can play the keyboard, and the feelings of 2nd class juz disappear as i know i am precious in the eyes of God, and he enjoyed my ministry :)
And thus, I could start to serve with a renewed heart, a joyful one. I enjoyed worshipping him, enjoyed the presence of Jesus, as the song sounds " Jesus, Your presence is heaven to me".
Secretly, i've made a promise to God. I wanna make pnw ministry as my first ministry. I juz wanna live my life worshipping God. I wanna continue to learn different styles in playing piano, improve my skills, getting a new keyboard, a real 2nd keyboard with synthesizer, so that i can play nice music, not for men but for Jesus.
Love you, Jesus.
Again, I juz wanna say grace and thank God for giving me the chance to involve in praise n worship ministry, to have the chance in serving him with the keyboard together with the team.
I used to have the thinking that my ministry is a 2nd class ministry, where my presence is not really important (where if there is me then the music becomes nicer, but without me it doesnt affect much). I could not really cope with the team, where i always think that the guys (musicians) have their special way of communication, and i could not understand n join in the conversation.
Went to FGA again few days ago for a praise n worship seminar with Redo. Missed the 1st session, but I thank God i went to the 2nd one. Was juz bak from Singapore n JB on thurs, and i went straight to the seminar. Feeling really tired, I am not really really excited at first. However, things changed when Redo started singing worship, and when he started sharing. His voice is sooooooo anointed, and i really could feel the presence of God when he sang the first line. I learned alot from his sharing, he is really humble, cute and always smiling throughout the session. He shared his life testimony, and I was amazed by his life story, and also how great is our God to use a person like him, who came from a really really broken family. He used to be a nobody, he learned music on his own, until now he can sing any songs on the spot wif his guitar, and also compose songs which are sang throughout countries. I still remember each and every word that he speaks. He is famous, yet he does not steals the glory of God. He seems to be nobody, but God makes him a somebody.
The first worship song he sang: "I'm coming back to the heart of worship, and its all about You, all about You, Jesus", and his sharing that the one that we are ministering should be God, not men. And then I realised, its all about Jesus. No matter the presence of me is important or not in the eyes of men, no matter how small the contribution i gave, its all about Jesus, and it matters to God. Suddenly, I felt so blessed, so loved by God, and so proud and happy that i am in the worship team, that i could use the keyboard to worship. Suddenly, i feel so grateful that i can play the keyboard, and the feelings of 2nd class juz disappear as i know i am precious in the eyes of God, and he enjoyed my ministry :)
And thus, I could start to serve with a renewed heart, a joyful one. I enjoyed worshipping him, enjoyed the presence of Jesus, as the song sounds " Jesus, Your presence is heaven to me".
Secretly, i've made a promise to God. I wanna make pnw ministry as my first ministry. I juz wanna live my life worshipping God. I wanna continue to learn different styles in playing piano, improve my skills, getting a new keyboard, a real 2nd keyboard with synthesizer, so that i can play nice music, not for men but for Jesus.
Love you, Jesus.
Friday, August 10, 2012
Process of Learning :)
Had a great chance to go to FGA CYC last week to learn from their pnw team, to see how they practice, how they conduct each songs, arrangements of songs.......
Learned alot through see-ing how the 2nd keyboardist plays..
The whole team have a very very strong team spirit, each trying to cover each up and help each other during the jamming..
They have a very strong team, alot of professionals, very humble attitudes and strong bond among each other, a very strong sense of unity, which let dem plays songs out sooooo fluently..
Frankly, i was really impressed by the whole team, the whole church..
Had been to FGA for quite a number of time, but I didnt really have a good look at the church..
That Thursday, I had a very good chance to be on the stage, to see the view of the hall from the stage..
It is just toooo magnificent! Too grand, and too good to be true!
I guess our team is really excited too, and our team leader, sis Jessie start to ask us to visualise, to imagine that 1 day, our team will also have the chance to stand on such a grand stage, leading thousands and thousands of God's people to come forward and worship Him..
Last wed, we again felt really honoured to have Ps Daniel Chong and his team, the band leader cum bassist, Joshua, CK, a very very very good singer, Robin and David the twins, which are also the band's guitarist and drummer, and lastly, Chin Foong, the music director and pianist in the band..
The nite started of with me getting a good chance to serve the servants of God, by preparing some foods and drinks for them.. I'm even lucky to get the chance to make coffee for Ps Daniel and his bro Joshua.. :P
We started off our fellowship at the hall by reviewing our pnw for last sat, and Ps Daniel gave us very good advices on how to improve it, no matter is on the hardware side, or the software part.. He reminded us a very good thing, that we should worship God, and not worship worship..
Next, the team was divided into 2, where all the vocalist went up into the resource room upstairs and have their own practice with Ps Daniel and CK.. The rest of us, the musicians stayed bak on stage to have a fellowship with the band members of CYC.. The practice started of with bro Joshua praising us, saying that we played well for the song ''Ku kan Terbang", but improvement is needed for "Betapa Dalamnya", as it sounds a bit messy on the instrumental part.. So, the band members of CYC den demonstrates and show us how to play the song, to be more clean n clear.
This is where the best part comes. (*well, dont think aside, its just a practice) Ching Foong came beside me and played the 2nd keyboard part for the song. I was so excited as I tot he should be playing for Jason. :P I stared at his fingers running all over the keyboard for the whole song.. I should say he was really AWESOME! I've noticed him last time during the conferences, noticed that he is a really good keyboard player, but the first time standing so near and watching him plays was just too great.. :D The way he plays the keyboard, i've never played anything like dat.. Think Chan Mei Jie was excited too as she starts to throw him tons n tons of question after that, even taking his phone number :P Then it become my turn again to play the 2nd keyboard, trying very hard to recall wat he had played, and how to play it out. I became soooooo nervous dat i could not remember wat he had played. Only started to pick up my confidence and press the keys when I look down the stage, searching for him, n he gives me eye contact signalling me to press da keys. The feeling is juz so, hmmmmmm, wat word should i use to describe.. Safe? Dont really know how come i get across with such feelings, but anyways, yea, that is it.. :P Continued with worship, while waiting for the vocalists to come down.. He teaches me to use the bell pad, or the strings to fill in the song, to insert emotions into the songs by playing in ways.. *Found out that he is a final year student of ICOM, and could play the piano, guitar, violin and cello well, thus he was so good in music la, obviously.. :P
Lastly, there comes the time to say goodbye. I believe the band still have alot of things to share with us, but due to time constrain, that is all they could give for the time being. Still, I feel really blessed and thank God for putting me in the team, and giving me chances and opportunities to learn from others.. It was really an awesome fellowship, stirring up my spirit till today.. I trully believe that this sat's service will be filled with God's glory, a very thick presence of Holy Spirit.
Thank God for all that You have given me, keep the spirit of learning and excitement in me so that i will serve you and your people happily, without any complaints or sadness.
I wanna play songs of love, just for You.. :) Love you, sweet Jesus.
Learned alot through see-ing how the 2nd keyboardist plays..
The whole team have a very very strong team spirit, each trying to cover each up and help each other during the jamming..
They have a very strong team, alot of professionals, very humble attitudes and strong bond among each other, a very strong sense of unity, which let dem plays songs out sooooo fluently..
Frankly, i was really impressed by the whole team, the whole church..
Had been to FGA for quite a number of time, but I didnt really have a good look at the church..
That Thursday, I had a very good chance to be on the stage, to see the view of the hall from the stage..
It is just toooo magnificent! Too grand, and too good to be true!
I guess our team is really excited too, and our team leader, sis Jessie start to ask us to visualise, to imagine that 1 day, our team will also have the chance to stand on such a grand stage, leading thousands and thousands of God's people to come forward and worship Him..
Last wed, we again felt really honoured to have Ps Daniel Chong and his team, the band leader cum bassist, Joshua, CK, a very very very good singer, Robin and David the twins, which are also the band's guitarist and drummer, and lastly, Chin Foong, the music director and pianist in the band..
The nite started of with me getting a good chance to serve the servants of God, by preparing some foods and drinks for them.. I'm even lucky to get the chance to make coffee for Ps Daniel and his bro Joshua.. :P
We started off our fellowship at the hall by reviewing our pnw for last sat, and Ps Daniel gave us very good advices on how to improve it, no matter is on the hardware side, or the software part.. He reminded us a very good thing, that we should worship God, and not worship worship..
Next, the team was divided into 2, where all the vocalist went up into the resource room upstairs and have their own practice with Ps Daniel and CK.. The rest of us, the musicians stayed bak on stage to have a fellowship with the band members of CYC.. The practice started of with bro Joshua praising us, saying that we played well for the song ''Ku kan Terbang", but improvement is needed for "Betapa Dalamnya", as it sounds a bit messy on the instrumental part.. So, the band members of CYC den demonstrates and show us how to play the song, to be more clean n clear.
This is where the best part comes. (*well, dont think aside, its just a practice) Ching Foong came beside me and played the 2nd keyboard part for the song. I was so excited as I tot he should be playing for Jason. :P I stared at his fingers running all over the keyboard for the whole song.. I should say he was really AWESOME! I've noticed him last time during the conferences, noticed that he is a really good keyboard player, but the first time standing so near and watching him plays was just too great.. :D The way he plays the keyboard, i've never played anything like dat.. Think Chan Mei Jie was excited too as she starts to throw him tons n tons of question after that, even taking his phone number :P Then it become my turn again to play the 2nd keyboard, trying very hard to recall wat he had played, and how to play it out. I became soooooo nervous dat i could not remember wat he had played. Only started to pick up my confidence and press the keys when I look down the stage, searching for him, n he gives me eye contact signalling me to press da keys. The feeling is juz so, hmmmmmm, wat word should i use to describe.. Safe? Dont really know how come i get across with such feelings, but anyways, yea, that is it.. :P Continued with worship, while waiting for the vocalists to come down.. He teaches me to use the bell pad, or the strings to fill in the song, to insert emotions into the songs by playing in ways.. *Found out that he is a final year student of ICOM, and could play the piano, guitar, violin and cello well, thus he was so good in music la, obviously.. :P
Lastly, there comes the time to say goodbye. I believe the band still have alot of things to share with us, but due to time constrain, that is all they could give for the time being. Still, I feel really blessed and thank God for putting me in the team, and giving me chances and opportunities to learn from others.. It was really an awesome fellowship, stirring up my spirit till today.. I trully believe that this sat's service will be filled with God's glory, a very thick presence of Holy Spirit.
Thank God for all that You have given me, keep the spirit of learning and excitement in me so that i will serve you and your people happily, without any complaints or sadness.
I wanna play songs of love, just for You.. :) Love you, sweet Jesus.
Monday, July 16, 2012
幸福的滋味
今天在婚礼彩排中，机缘巧合下当了临时演员，角色是宁恩姐的姐妹/伴娘之一。。
虽然只是彩排，只是替身，再那一瞬间的感觉，却毕生难忘。。
那一刻，手中握着紫玫瑰入场时，心情是兴奋的，看着前面，众人眼目给于祝福的眼神，前面新郎幸福的等待他最漂亮的新娘入场，那种幸福的滋味，是我重来都没感受过的。。
看着新郎，还是忍不住笑了，好帅气的新郎啊 ！
忍不住幻想着，我结婚当天，新郎是不是也会这样幸福的望着我呢？ :P
谢谢你，宁恩姐。。
虽然只是彩排，已经足够了。。:)
心里深深祝福着我最爱最爱的两位组长，郎才女貌的一对，真让人称羡啊！
要永远永远永远幸福哦！:)
今天的情景，让我想婚了。。 :P
我的白马王子啊...... 你到底在哪里？XD
虽然只是彩排，只是替身，再那一瞬间的感觉，却毕生难忘。。
那一刻，手中握着紫玫瑰入场时，心情是兴奋的，看着前面，众人眼目给于祝福的眼神，前面新郎幸福的等待他最漂亮的新娘入场，那种幸福的滋味，是我重来都没感受过的。。
看着新郎，还是忍不住笑了，好帅气的新郎啊 ！
忍不住幻想着，我结婚当天，新郎是不是也会这样幸福的望着我呢？ :P
谢谢你，宁恩姐。。
虽然只是彩排，已经足够了。。:)
心里深深祝福着我最爱最爱的两位组长，郎才女貌的一对，真让人称羡啊！
要永远永远永远幸福哦！:)
今天的情景，让我想婚了。。 :P
我的白马王子啊...... 你到底在哪里？XD
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Blessed birthday darling :)
To: My dearest sis,
Blessed 21st gal :)
all of us at Tong Pak Fu, Giza.. :)
Me n Her.. :D
Its been quite a long time since we last really hang out, gather, talk, yum cha, and play around.. :)
I had alot of fun, organising n planning as usual, although tiring, but still, worth it :D
Had alot to say, alot of things happened, but till the end, only the happy times and memories remain in my heart..
Thanks alot gal for being my best fren and sister, which i specially dedicate dis post to..
Thanks for always being dere, although we have totally different personalities, still thank God that He put you beside me, as we just need each other to fill in the space in between our lives..
Pray that our good God will continue to pour his abundant blessings on you, stay strong and happy always yup!
Lastly, all the best in everything u do, and may u be loved by all always! :P
Love,
Sis. :)
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Friday, May 18, 2012
我真的受伤了
窗外阴天了 音乐低声了
我的心开始想你了
灯光也暗了 音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了 人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了
电话响起了 你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎麽你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了 是你变了
灯光熄灭了 音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了 人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了
fall in love with this song after his concert..
heard versions sang by other singers, still only his version is so touching, full with emotions..
a really wonderful performance, love his voice, his dance, and also the whistling.. :)
he sang really well, where we could see that he really puts in effort and feelings in singing and expressing each songs, which every song touches people's heart..
its a really worth-to-watch concert, and i'll go again if he comes back again, bringing my family and sitting in the VIP's seats which i could see him in real person.. :)
brings back alot of childhood memories, which i grow up listening to his songs..
support u always, continue to make great musics for us! :)
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