Still and Rejoice..

Today was a normal day. As usual, I woke up n ate some nice dim sum bought by mum. Reached church n we started our routine prayer time wif Jessie Jie. However, prayer today seemed different. We reali can feel da presence of God in our room, so close dat we felt dat He was juz beside us. Jessie Jie lead a song. English translation shd be Holy Spirit dat gives freedom. As we sang, my heart started to feel da love of God in my heart......

I admit dat in my ministry, I'll always show my strong side. As a leader, we shd onli speak of words dat r encouraging  n positive. When I'm wif my members, I'll onli speak of encouraging words, hope dat I can build up their life n wont let God n church leaders down. I always believe dat we as children of God shd serve Him n love Him whole-heartedly no matter in wat circumstances.

However, I noe, deep inside my heart, I stil hav some kind of emptiness. Sometimes when I've been busy serving n workin whole day, I'll feel kinda lost n blank after dat. I'll feel tired. I'll feel lik, God, where're U? Do I love U whole heartedly so I serve U? Or I serve because it's my ministry? I'm lost, n sometimes to escape dis kind of thinkin, I'll chose not to tink bout it, hoping dat wat I do is correct, n I serve because I love.

This situation continued for days. Dis few days, I had a deep talk wif few of our church leaders. Their words strongly encouraged me. I understand dat da emptiness in my heart, is because my relationship with God is not deep enough. I always try to use my ways n my thinking to solve problem, yet I forgotten I hav a great big Father God dat is always standing dere n waiting me to turn bak towards Him. I'll always try to cover up myself, especially my weak side, to show da whole world dat I'm really okay. But deep inside me, dere's a voice telling, Lord, I need U.. Pls refresh my heart. Let me feel da love I first had when I first met U. Lord, pls feel my heart with da fire n passion n love for U when i first get my salvation. N dat I willing to sacrifice all my time n my strength juz to spread ur gospel in all nations n all places juz to see salvations in ppl. 

Lord, I noe I'm weak, but in U I can fullfil alot of amazing n wonderful things. Holy spirit, I wan U to be in my life everyday, n lead me in everything I do, as I know, Lord, U're my shepherd n I'm Ur sheep, n U'll show me da pathway towards light. Lord, let me be da lighthouse, although I mayb lonely standing by da sea, yet da light I shine can brighten up lifes in darkness. N I noe although I may seemed lonely, but God, U're my refuge n shelter, n U'll be by myside forever. Lord, strengthen me, help me, be with me.

God, I love U. Make this love towards U getting more n deep everyday, n I pray dat in my life, dere will be more of U n less of me everyday. In all circumstances, I juz want to, be STILL, n REJOICE in the Lord..

年青岁月。。

近来，觉得自己有些‘老’了。。

似乎越来越难以明白现代年轻人的想法。。 =.=

现今年轻人的思想，行为，似乎和当初的我差得天渊之别。。

他们情绪的波动，敢作敢恨的行为，让我甘拜下风。。

尤其是男女关系，换伴侣好像换衣服那么快，实在让我摸不着，也想不透，他们恋爱到底是为了什么呢？寂寞？追求一时的娱乐？因为他有所以我也要有？他告白，就接受咯，别hurt人吗。。

这似乎和当初神造男女的目的好像有出入了。。

经上记着说，

“神就赐福给他们、又对他们说、要生养众多、遍满地面、治理这地．也要管理海里的鱼、空中的鸟．和地上各样行动的活物。”

“因此、人要离开父母、与妻子连合、二人成为一体。”

年轻时，难免好玩好动，但须紧记神的话语，恋爱，乃是为了结婚。。

年轻时的疯狂岁月，每个人都曾经对爱充满憧憬。。

可是，在我心里，我深信，万事都互相效力，叫爱神的人的益处。。

当我们先求神的国和神的义时，我们所需要的，神必加给我们。。

最近，觉得自己的“异性缘”还蛮好的。。

为什么用开关引号呢，皆因所有异性都是小弟弟型的。。=.=

这些弟弟们好可爱，都小我好几年呢。。

可是还蛮听话的。。

时常和我分享他们生活上所面对的问题，感情问题，对神的话语的疑问。。

看见他们渐渐在主里成长，心里确实还蛮开心的。。

愿神继续的保守他们的心思意念，让他们知道，生命里最美丽，最值得的事是为主而活。。

昨天和一位好久都没说话的朋友谈天了。。

虽然只是短短几句，可是非常的开心。。

大家互相的关心问候，感觉非常温馨。。

还记得前一阵子都不太想和他联络，因为几乎每次说话都弄得像吵架般，不开心收场。。

当然，他也应该不够敏锐，正确点应该是我不开心收场。。

昨天忽然领悟到，当我们肯放下过去，以平常心看待一切，相处之下的感觉就不一样了。。

与其耿耿于怀，倒不如开开心心过每一天。。 =）

神的意念，高过人的意念。当我们将凡事献上给神时，祂明白什么是对我们最好的。。

所以，我们应当一无挂虑、只要凡事借着祷告、祈求、和感谢、将你们所要的告诉神。

因为，神所赐出人意外的平安、必在基督耶稣里、保守你们的心怀意念。

你不知道的事

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什麽离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨 碎了满地
在心里清晰
你不知道我为什麽狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什麽离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨 碎了满地
在心里清晰
你不知道我为什麽狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

我飞行 但你坠落之际

你不知道我为什麽离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨 碎了满地
在心里清晰
你不知道我为什麽狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事




在生命中，应该有好多事都不能在我们控制中吧。。
曾经埋怨，看见好多人都慢慢进入人生另一个阶段，开始恋爱了，心里就会好羡慕。。
最不喜欢情人节的到来，看见好多情侣一对对的走在街上，心里会开始想东想西了。。
最近爱上了王力宏，你不知道的事，就像道出了多年以来的心声，以美妙的旋律加上诗情画意的词句唱了出来。。
非常的喜欢这首歌。。
听着听着，就会想象，可能这世上有好多、好多我还没知道的事。。
世上的某个`角落，有个我还不知道、不认识的人等待着我，是上帝所预备的。。
上帝的安排是很奇妙的，每个人与人的相遇、相知、相惜、相亲直到相爱，都是早已安排的。。
每个人认识，都必须经过这些阶段，感谢神，让我在生命里有一班知音朋友，伴我度过每个思念的四季。。




一路走来，一路成长，一路学习，当我们学会放慢脚步，用个喜剧、正面的思想去看待整个世界时，忽然就会发现其实世界真的好大、好美丽，人间亦处处温暖、处处有情。。

从神得力。。

愿以为我早已放下，原来在心中个角落还是存在着你的踪影。。
突然，我似乎能明白她的感受。。
虽然无意，但想必我无形间也给你们造成压力吧。。
曾告诉自己好多次，别插入、八卦你们的事，可心里自然会想着。。
虽然祝福你们，却依然会有些涟漪浮气在心中。。
后悔当时不听人的劝告，事已至此，后悔也来不及了。。
对不起，给你们造成麻烦，尝试改着，需要些时间。。。
多年的习惯，似乎不容易在短时间内改掉。。
我。。。放弃了。。不想与你们再有何瓜葛。。

从TODAY camp 回来，神再次把对年轻人的负担放在我心中，我告诉自己，要回应神在我生命里的呼召，要更爱年轻人。。
忙服事、工作、学业都没时间了，哪来别的时间忙别的呢。。=P

感谢神，让我再转角处遇见希望，从神从新得力。。。。

恋爱通告

刚看完恋爱通告，真的好浪漫。。
爱上了王力宏。。
戏和歌都好棒。。
看了这戏，让人有种想恋爱的感觉。。
沉醉-ing。。


该醒了。。
还是回到现实忙工作吧。。
我的爱情，时间还没到呢。。
现在是全心为主活的时候。。。。

Blessings in Disguise...

Last thurs was 1 of da worst day in my life....
I LOST my handbag apparently, n i dun even noe where n when..
Is it in da place we had dinner in subang perdana?
Or it drop out when i send Vincent n Kenny home dat day??
Anyways, no matter how, no matter wat i say, its lost... Gone for gud...
Inside my handbag i had my newly bought GPS n camera, all so brand new dat i hardly even touch..
My 2 beloved phones....
My cash, n dis month's pay cheque...
Most importantly, my ic n driving license.....
And oso, 1 photo when i took when i was young... So cute gal de photo, LOST... *perasannnning n sad
Kor gave me de namecard, Jessie Jie gave de bookmark, Ching gave de wallet card.... All LOST....
Sigh....
Feel so sad.... Went police station to report at 12am midnite,n attended morning prayer at 6am da 2nd day....

After prayer we continue wif DF pnw prac n DF after dat...
It seems lik all ppl were calling my phone whole day n cant find me..
I'm Sorrrrryyyy...
Many asked me, "You Ting Jie, wont u feel sad or cry?? U lost things worth more den RM1000++ wor..."
Guessed wat i say, "Hmm.... Sad de.. But cry cant solve prob, wat i can do is believe dat God wil bless me more abundantly, n i'll be more careful in future lo..."
Dey're surprised wif my ans....
However, I had peace n joy in me, I noe God has a better plan for me when i dun complain n juz hand things to God...

True enuf, I enjoyed myself alot during Skudai trip..
Learned alot, make new frens....
Best things starting to happen....
Firstly, my boss suddenly say wanna increase my pay..
2ndly, office agreed to reissue my pay cheque for dis month..
Den, parents didnt scold me for losing their camera n GPS, n dey bought me a new phone, a newer model den my previous...
Other den dat, when i went to redo my IC today, I supposely need to pay a penalty of RM110 for losing my IC.. But I met a kind officer n when he see dat I'm stil a student n I've d lost so many things, he offered himself to discount my penalty n i onli need to pay RM30 total..

Praise da Lord!!!


God is juz so wonderful...
When in other ppl's eyes I seemed to experience great loss n shd be sad, I chose to hav faith in Him n noe dat He'll arrange da best for me..
And when I chose to SELAH... God started to do miraculous things in my life..
And once again He show me dat He cares me more den any1 else in da world, and he can do things far more greater den anything in da world.....


After all, its a blessing in disguise!! Hallelujah!!! =)

是吗？

有句話說，
人是感情的動物，
也是習慣的動物，
很多東西久了就會喜歡，
很多人相處久了就會有感情。。


是吗？