Sunday, October 28, 2012

Confused o.O

Am in a very confused state now.
Its just a dream Adeline, wake up!

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Heart of Worship

I'm coming back to the heart of worship, and its all about You, all about You, Jesus. Amen.

Again, I juz wanna say grace and thank God for giving me the chance to involve in praise n worship ministry, to have the chance in serving him with the keyboard together with the team.

I used to have the thinking that my ministry is a 2nd class ministry, where my presence is not really important (where if there is me then the music becomes nicer, but without me it doesnt affect much). I could not really cope with the team, where i always think that the guys (musicians) have their special way of communication, and i could not understand n join in the conversation.

Went to FGA again few days ago for a praise n worship seminar with Redo. Missed the 1st session, but I thank God i went to the 2nd one. Was juz bak from Singapore n JB on thurs, and i went straight to the seminar. Feeling really tired, I am not really really excited at first. However, things changed when Redo started singing worship, and when he started sharing. His voice is sooooooo anointed, and i really could feel the presence of God when he sang the first line. I learned alot from his sharing, he is really humble, cute and always smiling throughout the session. He shared his life testimony, and I was amazed by his life story, and also how great is our God to use a person like him, who came from a really really broken family. He used to be a nobody, he learned music on his own, until now he can sing any songs on the spot wif his guitar, and also compose songs which are sang throughout countries. I still remember each and every word that he speaks. He is famous, yet he does not steals the glory of God. He seems to be nobody, but God makes him a somebody.

The first worship song he sang: "I'm coming back to the heart of worship, and its all about You, all about You, Jesus", and his sharing that the one that we are ministering should be God, not men. And then I realised, its all about Jesus. No matter the presence of me is important or not in the eyes of men, no matter how small the contribution i gave, its all about Jesus, and it matters to God. Suddenly, I felt so blessed, so loved by God, and so proud and happy that i am in the worship team, that i could use the keyboard to worship. Suddenly, i feel so grateful that i can play the keyboard, and the feelings of 2nd class juz disappear as i know i am precious in the eyes of God, and he enjoyed my ministry :)

And thus, I could start to serve with a renewed heart, a joyful one. I enjoyed worshipping him, enjoyed the presence of Jesus, as the song sounds " Jesus, Your presence is heaven to me".

Secretly, i've made a promise to God. I wanna make pnw ministry as my first ministry. I juz wanna live my life worshipping God. I wanna continue to learn different styles in playing piano, improve my skills, getting a new keyboard, a real 2nd keyboard with synthesizer, so that i can play nice music, not for men but for Jesus.

Love you, Jesus.